I am sad today...

Whenever I get home I have no mail. I check my emails and I have no emails. No phone messages. I'm waiting for one check from a job I did 4 months ago (plus!), graduate school admissions letters of acceptance or rejection, calls for job interviews, and more. The job thing is beginning to frustrate me. I mean, out of how many applications do I get one interview? 25-30? Is that my record? I suppose I just have to keep at it.

February has turned out to be quite the dynamic month after all. Let's see... I've started applying for jobs essentially at the beginning of the month. Three weeks later and I have only one interview, but it's an interview, so I suppose I can't complain. I've spoken with a few people and notified the temp agencies of my return to the workplace. They haven't called me with anything, sadly.
Today the jobs are in short supply. At least the ones that seem remotely interesting, that is. I suppose I should push forward. I'm seriously looking into higher education administration and I'm doing what I can to worm my way in somewhere. That's the plan, anyway.
The website stuff isn't going along all that well. I need some sort of magical motivational fairy dust or something to get me to sit down and learn this crap.
Unfortunately I think I've developed carpal tunnel in my left arm/hand. That is a serious setback for a person who plans to type a bunch of papers in the near future. Perhaps there is a way to ease the pain? Or even fix it? Sometimes I think I'm either a hypochondriac or some sort of ailing old woman. Hmmm

So in typical internet fashion, the internet crashed just as I'd finished writing a fully detailed entry.
Cut to one day later and I have a headach the size of Mt. Rushmore and I can only peer at the computer screen from one eye.
So, I'll be brief:

I have to move out of my apartment soon. My roommate just found a new place so I may be out of there by April 1st. I will stay with the boyfriend long enough to figure out where I'm going to school and then if I stay in the city we will get a place. If I leave, well, we'll see.

I have a job interview next week with big new york corporation but what looks to be a decent enough full-time gig. My fingers are crossed this time, actually, and I'll be happy to go and check it out. It doesn't sound half bad and the woman who called me was quite pleasant. If I get/take this job I may have to suit up for a few years, but I will be in graduate school, so what the hell! The benefits are great! And I'll be doing it to put myself through school (that'll be my excuse for all the corporate whoring, anyway).

I am a terrible procrastinator, by the way. I need to find out how to internally motivate myself. Soon.

If you look to the right

you will see that I've added a few more blogs to my blogroll. Just a few. So far the blog roll doesn't include any strangers, so I'm still fairly uncool in this blog world. Alas.

But more friends are blogging! Yay!

In other news: I'm once again going through the job-search motions. I could take some time off to look, although at this point in my life I feel it's not a great idea. I'm not broke and I have enough money to keep me afloat for many months but with college coming up I don't feel very good about spending without income. Anyhoo... the one thing I do feel positive about, for once, is the actual job hunt itself. For the past year I've been a wreck about it: depressed, disillusioned, pessimistic. I was looking half-heartedly, and I wasn't clear what I wanted. Then I got this job for 6 months and it allowed me to take a break from all that. I found time to clear my head. I found time to evaluate my interests and the opera also offered me a new experience. This time I feel almost excited about the job hunt for the first time in a long, long while. If not excited, at least energetic. I know the difficulty now and I expect it, but for some reason my new-found enthusiasm has already led me to people and resources I didn't even know I had. I plan to keep it up and damnit, I will have work in the end. Wooah ha ha ha ha!!

If there's one thing I've learned in this world

It's that there are very few things you can count on in life, save maybe your parents (if they are nice parents). No employer has ever provided me health insurance or benefits... I do that myself. I save for my own damn retirement. There are no guarantees about anything, especially jobs these days. It's the capitalism this government wants in place: the individual is responsible for his or her own destiny and there is no safety net (or a minor safety net that irritates the hell out of these politicians). So, if you are laid off or a family member passes away or you come down with some debilitating illness before you buy some health benefits, well, it's your own damn problem. Probably somebody is getting rich off your poor ass.

So there.

Anyway, I began this rant not because of the news (although as many of you know I talk about this issue often). It's because my 6-month-long temp job is coming to a close soon. Possibly. But most likely, because I won't count on them to extend my position longer than they have already and I certainly won't count on them to create a new position for me for a variety of reasons. It's okay, I could make more money elsewhere and I've been itching to try. But I can't help feeling a bit like I'm all alone out here. I see these people with "job security" being fired, and people like myself who don't have any security to begin with. I never fooled myself about this position. I hoped that perhaps it would become secure, but it never was full-time-permanent so I knew I couldn't put all my eggs in this basket. That's why I started applying for new work. Sent out about 6-9 resumes already but haven't heard from anyone, not yet, but that's okay because I have more temp agencies to visit. To be honest, these companies may not be able to depend on me yet, either. We all use each other. These are indeed sad times.

I will miss my co-workers. They are nice people.

February...February... I am only a few months away from leaving my crummy apartment and going to... I don't know where...anywhere but there...
Things at work are slowing down to a crawl, it seems. This month is the month where I wait out the cold and the uncertainty. I am applying for 2 jobs a day with the hope that maybe something will come along. I haven't been too agressive in my search, though, because I don't know what I'm doing yet. This is just practice, to get me thinking about my next step after I find out where I'm going to college. February stinks.

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