A little bit profound, a little bit silly, but actually mostly profound:
I dreamt that I was watching a documentary about a marsh where people claimed they could talk to God. You could hear him speak on the wind... it sounded like a whisper but it was clearly audible. There was a catch, though. Whatever you said to God, whatever you asked him, he would only reply with one word: "whatever."

Also, the other night I woke my boyfriend because I had a nightmare. Don't remember the actual nightmare, I just remember this conversation:
Me: "Keep me up for a second, I had a nightmare."
Boyfriend: "Oh no. What was it about?"
Me: "About the Amish."
zzzzzzz

MY SUPERPOWER!!!

Today I came up with an exciting new Superpower: I would be able to bring to life characters from fictional stories. Only I can do it, though, and it would not be without consequence to me... it would zap much of my energy and render me bedridden for perhaps a day or more. Of course it takes lots of energy to make a real person. I could probably only bring back one per set period of time. Also, I would bear the responsibility of creating a life and that life would have memories that others only know as stories: imagine waking up and finding out that your entire world was some novel written by some schmuck. Maybe all the characters would turn bitter and cynical. (I would only try to bring to life those who are not so inclined to be bitter or cynical. Also, I can restore them to their stories if need be.) Anyway, the question is: if you could bring to life one person from a story, who would it be? I'm still working mine out.

Ta da!

I have made a decision! Yay!
I've decided to go to graduate school. Mass Communications. For a variety of reasons: I want to be able to teach. I want to have an advanced degree (I see lots of job postings asking for advanced degrees and they also make you sound cooler), I want to hone my skills and study some more theory, because I miss that kind of thing out in this here "
real world."
So, thus begins the application processes. Unfortunately, those who've been to grad school know that it's a difficult process. First, an essay. Not too bad, right? Then, there's the transcripts from the Undergrad Institution. I have good grades, and it costs me nothing to request them from Central, so great, easy peasy. Oh, and of course the GRE scores... took 'em, have to pay a bit to send those scores here and there, but it's a minor fee. Well then, there's also the three letters of reccommendation. This is probably the toughest part, because that means you have to beg former professors or bosses or teachers for letters, possibly improvised or maybe a form letter provided by the institution. Last of course is the fee. $50-85 dollars and app. What!? Ouch! Want to apply to lots of schools? Well, pony up missy! And while you're at it, make it really inconvenient for those who spent so much time and energy educating you. Hey, but that means you really want to go, so you'll get in, right? I dunno. Anyway, I have some master plans brewing that will keep me nearly or totally debt-free:

Plan A: Stay in NYC. Work and go to school at the same time. Either work a job and go to CUNY ('cause it's affordable), or land an administrative position at some expensive private school so I can work there while they pay for a chunk of my tuition.

Pros: Cheap transportation-- no need to buy and maintain a vehicle. I can find cheap-ish rent in outer burroughs so that's okay. I will be in the midst of that which I'm studying. There are lots of jobs and I know where to look for them. Plus, with the whole "New York experience" I will be marketable as hell after it's all over.

Cons: I'm fed up with New York. I just want to move somewhere nice and chill, like the mountains. I did my "New York" thing and I'm ready to jet. Another 2-3 years here may be agonizing. Plus, rent is expensive.

Plan B: Get a fellowship somewhere that will pay for tuition, make sure it's a cheap location, and stay really near campus. Also, come back to NYC in the summers and work ass off.

Pros: Will be out of New York, will have an opportunity to teach and/or do research.

Cons: I can't count on this plan, I can't count on finding a place to live for summers or finding a job (even a well-paying temp position), and a grad assistant stipend probably is not enough to feed and house me throughout the year. Plus I may have to buy a car.

Plan C: Get accepted to school in Seattle, live with brother for cheap (or even free if he's really nice and I buy food and watch the dog), get job on the side or assistantship.

Pros: I love Seattle, I have friends there, family there, there are mountains and it's definitely more "chill" than New York. Public transportation is excellent and I can probably forgo the car. It would be easier for my parents to visit both Brother and I.

Cons: I have yet to find a program in Seattle that's good for me. I'm still looking and hoping (please, God!). It's not as resume-friendly a place as New York.* I'd have to pay out-of-state tuition no matter where I go. Ouch.

*Of course, I did go to Central Michigan and where's that again? Oh yeah, nowhere. I plan to live and work where? Oh yeah, not New York (nor LA).

SO, there you have it. I implore anyone reading this to offer your advice so that I may narrow my search. My old profs may thank you, too. And my pocketbook thanks you.

In regards to my wonderful boyfriend, I am considering him in all of these plans. These considerations will be made more completely when I receive my acceptance/rejection letters. We've discussed it and neither one of us is opposed to trying a long-distance relationship if necessary. And since we've made no promises of marraige or life-long commitment, I've decided that I have to do what's best for me in this situation and if the relationship works out, great. Believe me, this is a difficult situation to consider. It boils down to this: I'll always have me, but I might not always have him.

Well, I'm hungry. I think I may have to go out for food. There's one thing I love about New York: the food. Yum!

The leaves are finally yellow and it's a gorgeous Saturday, so I'm going to head outside in a moment. In the meantime I want to say this: I was about to write a very depressing entry when I decided to clean my apartment first. Very often, physical action can affect one's attitude. I feel great now.

The leaves are finally yellow and it's a gorgeous Saturday, so I'm going to head outside in a moment. In the meantime I want to say this: I was about to write a very depressing entry when I decided to clean my apartment first. Very often, physical action can affect one's attitude. I feel great now.